Not.. Taken
So for the past Summer there have been many new adjustments I’ve had to get used too. For example my best friend having a girl friend. Its awesome I am HONESTLY very happy for the both of them and its great seeing him experience relationships and such but of course I can’t lie, a little part of me is jealous in the fact that now he spends a good majority of time with her and I understand thats completely normal. But today I basically found out ALL my close friends are either in a relationship or pursuing someone….And honestly its so frustrating because I feel like a complete loner/loser.So not only am I jealous of my friends spending more time with their “significant” others but also the fact that they have one. I mean I know eventually everyone starts dating and stuff but seriously! this soon. It really makes me want to just go out and instantly find my “significant” other and hit it off. I mean honestly for the past year I really haven’t been trying to pursue anyone or trying to search. Its almost as I have kinda cut off all my relations with the opposite gender and focused on my own close guy friends. I don’t know what it is but I sort of fear girls no matter if your a good friend or so. Mabe because I’m just not good with girls or mabe I fear intimacy WHO KNOWS?. But NOW I feel like so tempted to just satisfy my loneliness with somebody which I know is completely wrong and disrespectful. And I know what ya’ll are thinking… go to God and he will satisfy… but its easier said then done..were all humans and sometimes it can get lonely.
Anyone out there? My name is David Jo and I am not taken
| “Lonely men seek companionship. Lonely women sit at home and wait. They never meet.” | |
 Abraham Lincoln |
